For it is here in the pain body something awakens, from the darkest of darkness is birthed the brightest of light. It is here, where there is no one and no where else to go...something stepped forward and I stepped out.

The death of the ego, the program, the cycle and the role we play because we believed in these things. For all of a sudden your life flashes before your eyes and you see what lead you to this place of rebirth.

Like oil in water, we become two, The Self and then the Witness. Filled with consciousness and love, there is no pain here...it is what it is. There is a sweet surrender...and a death of that what was. For in new light, in clarity, connection and the birthing of something new, I am forever changed. One is now two. Duality splits in this paradoxal world...and I Am forever changed.

I see as I have never seen. The things people do, the roles we play, the suffering, limitations and restrictions we experience in these spaces. The cycle...on and on it goes, for that is all a singularity knows. That in which was taught.

The I and the me know of something innate, something that comes with us from somewhere else. For it is never born and it never dies. It was never taught, it is that I Am.

The fourth dimension, not a place for the weak of heart and spirit. We enter this realm in our sufferings, the space of manifestations. For the human being is a creator of One's own world. And what We believe is. An unconscious soul on this plane can get lost, create shadows, nightmares and a place of hell to dwell and play the victim.

The awakened, we awaken here. The fourth dimension. For the human being when in trauma splinters. Fractals. And when unaware, when unconscious, before awakening....these parts of us do not come back. For we do not even know they are missing. With out connection, with out the whole, with out full consciousness, we cannot navigate, we become dysfunctional and this is where we get lost in the dream, the downward spiral....the cycle, the pattern of karma and generational malfunction.

To awaken here, in this state of being, something once again is birthed...gifted. For all of a sudden I can not only see the victim, but I also see the witness...so what Am I.

The fifth dimension...lol. The realization of One's own multidimensionality. For I am not One, I am not Two....and I am now Three and the three become Many.

For I Am the One in the Many and the Many in the One. All birthed from suffering, from pain, from darkness, disfunction, chaos, madness and an aloneness I wish on no one.

All I have carried was never mine to carry. I see much from here. The cycles, the energy that goes round and round and round. The role I play, the power I give away and the consequences that follow.

I step out. I call myself back to me. I stand in my power and I Am love. I see the ripple that I make with in my lifes structure. How not playing the role or putting on the mask affects them. How it scares them. How angry it makes them, for my ripple disables what I enabled.

And here I find myself again, and will again and again. Each time awakening more, each time gaining more consciousness and innerstanding of my world, my family, my life....my life.

I take the arrows from my heart, mend my wounds and traumas with the knowing and innerstandings of how they are inflicted. Where the energy comes from, how, when and why it is directed and then I shift. I step back again and something else is birthed.

I will no longer take the blows from a place that pretends and thinks it is love. I will call it out, I will point it out and I will unmask it for the world to see. I will cause ripples and make my ripples into a tsunami....for most live in the shadows....casting arrows and inflictions of defense for they live in fear. They are fractured and have no idea of who and what they are.

Blow after blow my people have taken from those whom use us as pedestal for their own gain. For their own righteousness, their own game. Lost in the world of matter, of money and power. We are nothing, invisible, voiceless with no support. They have crushed us, beaten us down, our own families....our only supports and that we trusted.....until we woke up here.

We will not take that role...it is not ours to play.

We will take the blows...blow after blow...for it is all we have ever known and now know better, it is all illusion and why it looks and why you think you stand most high...and I most low. What is given to us....is that of generations, ancestral pain, abuse, disfunction, fear and unconsciousness....and that shit stops right now with Us.

For We are Warrior!!!

We are Light 

We are Love 

And there is no game, no role, no more blows....when there is no-One left to play.

KiKi Xx